Intestate

Reaching fifty eight
And I know exactly
Where everything 
Goes

I also know exatly
Where everything doesn't
Go

It goes where to the

World

A brother's death

 They fought

They fought like 

They fought like cats and

Dogs

(As my mother said)

And now she is dead

And now he is dead

I really can imagine them 

Fighting

Forever

Some ginormous ur 

Fight

Kind of like 

Normal,

Right?

Lost Dog

I saw a lost dog this morning
Cantering uneasily, its head
Looking back and forward
Trying to scan where it had
Been towards where it was
Going, not recognizing either
Way

I was walking too but knew 
Where I was going: down the 
Block from my house for 
Exercise and back again;
Down to the far corner
Where three roads meet at
Odd angles. There were no
Cars on the roads,  and the
Dog stuck to the sidewalk
Still, I worried about him and
Turned to watch him jog
Down the block, and turned to
Follow

But the dog was faster than
me, and I wasn't about to break
Into a jog myself. I don't need
That kind of exercise hammering
My old knees and then he took
A corner turn at the big maple,
Gone from my view so I turned
Around and continued on to
Home.

Paul

I've told you about
Paul

My friend who died 
Running across the 
Street

He was in the right
By the way, the bus
Had clearly stopped
Flashing

Lights, a clear warning
The car sped through
Though, killing Paul,
Throwing him into the 
Bus

Masked, looking forward
To a day full of fun and 
Candy,  he crossed mask
Down

And then Paul
Was dead just like 
That

The bus driver was
Dean

My Friend

 When I was six
I couldn't tie my 
Shoes

No one had taught
Me 
See

But Paul showed me
How just loop this one
Over that one and then
Loop

Paul was killed on
Halloween

Struck by a
Neglectful 
Driver

Dead at six

Wearing a 

Mask

Bittersweet

Imagine being a boy
But not quite a boy
That transition stage
Of adolensence when
You are not man but not
Boy

Imagine being a man
But not quite a man
That transition stage
Of adolensence when
You are not boy but not
Man

My brother, my sweet
Sweet brother once said
I don't see a man, when
I was that moment
Between

It sticks with you, those
Words

My sternum has calcified

I've been thinking about this for a few
Hours
My sternum turned to bone

All of a sudden

I knew a cat
With a similar
Condition

Sternum protruding
From his furry 
Chest

The vet said 
It was noting to
Worry

About

But I worried
And I am
Worried